tonight...

So, I'm sitting here crying like a little baby. I just dont understand life sometimes. I have the most wonderful little girl, Korah. She is the light of my life. And, I have Chad, he is so wonderful to me and Korah. Life is so great yet, so bad. I miss Cheryl. Cheryl, I miss you so much. I wish that things would not have went the way they did that day in December. I mean, I cant understand why someone would want to do what Richard Matthews did to you that day. How could he look you in the eyes, when you asked him not to shoot you, and do it ANYWAYS!
I just don't get it. And, then, on the news, I heard that a man shot his wife, then his 5 year old son, and then him self. For what!?!?? I just don't understand. I'm just frustrated and I feel lost. I just miss you cheryl, Korah misses MIMI. She always makes sure that she tells you she loves you every morning on the way to school. She says, I love you mimi, bye mimi!!!!!!!!!!! Every morning. It's so sweet. Cheryl, I miss you. sometimes, I wish that you were on vacation with a boyfriend or something but deep down, I know you arent.. Then, one day you would pop up and say hahhaha.. gotcha!!! I'm just so glad that i got to talk to you that day that morning. We talked about you coming over for Christmas and you didnt know what to get Chad for Christmas. I am sorry that this happened to you and to all of us. Im sorry you were scared. I love you and will always love you. You will always be thought about, every day!!!!! Rest In Peace Cheryl!!
I love you ..